i dont like to argue, i dont like to think , i dont like to explain.

I dont know wanna tell or not. 
I dont know wanna think or not.
I dont know wanna ask or not.
I dont know what to do.
I dont wanna have that feel again.
I dont feel that feel again.




How?
Teach me. 
She said , go , ask. 
Mind said , no, wait. 
She say, must , go.
Mind said , i dont know. should not, dont wanna do or think too much. 












Talking to a friend should be something goood, but thinking too much is no more good. 
Losing a friend is not good, losing a friend close is no thing good. Losing a bastard is worth it. 
But sometimes you wont know losing that person is good or not. how to choose. what to do. 






Not to lose them you will regret. you've lost them you'll regret. 
after youve found the replacement you want the old thing back. when you have that back, you dont know how to use it and just put it aside. 










I dont get it anymore. I dont know what to do. I dont know what Im thinking. I don tknow what can i do. I dont feel happy, I dont feel sad. why people think things in only one way. A very stupid way. Why people only know how to make people moody and not happy when you need them. When they talk to you , you might feel happy in the inside but not thorough. 






Doing things you nvr thought you would do feels stupid but what to do. Being a human with a brain that knows how to think does stupid things is normal. doing abnormal things like, you know what to do all the time  does not feel good neither. 












You have your own thing to solve i have mine. 
you are not happy so am i ?
You want to cheer me up but i dont know how.
When youre not happy idk will i do the same to you but why ?
thoughts in my head are like maths question that i dont know how to solve.